Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Faith vs. Fear

Fear. We've all experienced it. But how do we conquer it? How do we deal with fear without becoming paralyzed? The answer is simple, yet challenging. The key to having victory over our fears is Faith.

A week ago my husband had to fly to Washington, D.C. for a work conference. This was my first time alone in our new house. During the daylight hours, I kept myself busy by working, cleaning, walking the dog...doing anything and everything I could to keep my mind occupied so as not to let the fear creep in. But when it came time for bed, after the sun was gone and there was nothing keeping me from my thoughts...that's when the fear began to overtake me. Like water slowly rising, I found myself being drowned in my fears. Every sound was magnified. Every awful scenario played in my head. I was completely consumed with panic.

The first night I opened a bottle of wine in attempt to calm my nerves. But it was pure exhaustion that finally lulled me to sleep around 4am. The next night was just as tormenting. I couldn't shake the dark thoughts and feeling of terror at what could happen as I lay there...all alone.

Then I chose faith.

As I laid there in my bed, vulnerable and seemingly alone, God whispered through the dark to my heart and repeated His promise "I will NEVER leave you." (Deut. 31:6) And in that moment I had a choice to make...either I was going to trust that God IS who He says He is and therefor trust in His promises or I was going to believe Him to be a liar and stay stuck in my fears. In Isaiah 41:10 Christ says, "Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

I began to remember every instance where God had come through for me. I looked back at all the moments where at the time it wasn't clear that God was there with me but in hindsight....He had never left. His track record was perfect. Not once has He failed me. Even though I constantly fail Him. I began to ask myself if I could trust Him with my eternity...why couldn't I trust Him with my right now? I thought to myself, what if my worst case scenario came true...what then? Would it change the fact that whenever my life here on earth ends I will be with my Savior in eternity? And that's when I felt His peace embrace me.

 My God has conquered the grave. There is no greater power on Earth that can keep me from Him. And in that knowledge...through faith...there is nothing left to fear. We have eternal victory through Christ!

As human beings, fear will inevitably rear its ugly head throughout our lives. But fear is NOT from God. We must bring our thoughts back to His love and power. Turning fear into praise. Our God is FOR us so who could ever be against us? I pray you find the same peace in His promises today.

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Home Sweet Southern Home

It's been an awfully long time since I last updated my blog. It's not simply that I've been unmotivated to blog but that life has been pretty busy (and exciting) in our lives lately.

Since my last update, Jared went on several interviews at Universities all over the country. He had a couple offers from the places he interviewed but ultimately it came down to what would be best not only for his career, but for us as a family...and thinking into the future as our family grows (which we plan on expanding our family someday...although I think everyone around us is in a bigger hurry for that than we are).

Our desire has always been to live somewhere that values family and faith as well as offered a good working environment for Jared. We prayed long and hard about our options and didn't go with the highest bidder (though it was tempting). We instead chose family over fortune and beginning in July, Jared will be a professor at the University of Mississippi...better known as Ole Miss. I wasted no time in helping him build a website for his lab which you can check out by going to: I am so proud of him. He's worked so hard for this!

We are so excited to start this new chapter of our lives in Oxford. It is a charming little town full of hometown pride, history and character. I've described it to many of our family and friends as a storybook town, or for you Gilmore Girls fans out's a real life version of Stars Hollow. :) I believe it's going to be an excellent place to call home.

Upon accepting the job, we set out to do the next important step of buying a house. We had dreamed about being homeowners for so long and now the time to find a home had finally come. We looked at homes online for months prior to house hunting and we set aside a weekend to see as many as we could on our list. We saw about 15 homes in total and then narrowed it down from there. Before we knew it...our offer was accepted and we are now extremely excited homeowners!( will be official when we close on June 3rd) I'm still in a dreamlike state about it all. The blessings seem to be overflowing and I'm so incredibly grateful for how everything has come together. God is so good!!

Here is a photo of our beautiful home! :)

I can't wait to put our own personal touches on it! There is a decorator inside of me that is dying to get out! ;) We're both so excited about sharing lots of memories with friends and family in our new home. We have plenty of room for guests so don't be a stranger! We'd love to have you!